I knew that the family could not be saved after cheating on my husband

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Psychologists believe that in any relationship a loving person makes all concessions, and the partner takes advantage of this. Maybe because he does not value these relationships so much and is less attached to them.

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The same was true in our family. My husband provided for the family, but I did not see the warmth that I gave him. And I wanted to be loved, so I cheated on my husband with a work colleague. I can't say that I don’t repent of this, because my husband found out about the betrayal and immediately told my parents. This was the scariest thing for me. I was especially ashamed in front of my father, who did not want to listen to any excuses, and my mother only cried and said that she did not expect such an act from me. They do not understand how hard it is when a husband does not love you, because from the outside he is calm and caring.

I didn’t want to make excuses, I understood that it was useless, it was my own fault. I was ready for a divorce, but he said that we should save the family for the sake of the children, but I did not agree. Children will not be happy in a family where father and mother do not love each other. In addition, I understood that my husband did not forgive the betrayal, and never will. I am financially independent, so I can live on my own and provide the children with everything they need.

It was no surprise to me that my parents and his parents sided with my husband. But accusing me of all the sins, they nevertheless suggested not to rush, to think in order to stay together. To let my husband cool down and rethink what happened, I moved into my grandmother's empty apartment, and sent the children to their parents. We did not begin to explain anything to them, so as not to injure in advance.

Life went on, I didn’t remind my husband of myself for a whole month, until he himself called. Invited to a restaurant to talk. I was very surprised that he came dressed up, cheerful and gave me a ring. He said that he understood and forgave everything, and that I should return home. He set only one condition – dismissal from his previous job. I thought and agreed. But it turned out that in vain.

At first, my husband was emphatically attentive, which alarmed me. Then he began to control my every step, checked the phone, and when I was late for at least half an hour, he arranged an interrogation. But when he began to ask all the details of the relationship with his former colleague, I realized that my husband had not forgiven me and would never forgive me. It didn't come as a surprise to me, because I knew his character. But the parents themselves were convinced that we could no longer live together.

I filed for divorce myself. I moved to the apartment that my grandmother left me, made repairs and took the children to her. I do not prevent my husband from seeing them, he loves them very much, but he completely ignores me. I didn't deserve anything else.